19.7.18

funk




I got back just a couple of hours ago. Back from the hustle and bustle, the airports, the ridiculous heat. I wasn't away for the longest time but it was time I needed; time I felt was deserved. 
So I'm back.
It was the longest I've been away from home and I felt so content. So happy. But here I am; sat on my bed in my room and I feel a bit estranged from it all. I'm not waiting for school to start, I don't have a job and I don't have anything planned yet. I can list a million things I want to do, but I just don't know where to start. 
All in all, I'm in a bit of a funk. 
But I know it'll pass.
I want a bit of time to just be. To focus on my creativity and my health. I find myself in a predicament where I feel guilty for having the time to do this. I keep needing to justify it in my head. From the outside I worry it seems like I'm being really unproductive, but honestly I feel like I've got to stabilise my foundations before anything else. 

I've got a very fluid list of things I want to do/ work on, so here goes: 
-writing more
-exercising and being a bit healthier, gonna try the vegan thing againn
-clearing my mind 
-creating more
-shopping less, this isn't something I've really spoken about on here but shopping is a huge problem for me and I may write a post about it. Real confessions of a shopaholic lol, except minus the Prada.


In more exciting news, I got a distinction in my art foundation! So relieved. I'm so proud of what I created and it defo spurs me on to create more.
 I also just rejoined Twitter. I'm trying to widen my fashion knowledge and figure it's a good way to do so. Also have mega fomo. (follow me @lexiealexandraa hehe)

Thats a little update from me. I'm healthy and well, other than my mega post holiday blues. I hope you guys are all good!! 
lexie xo



9 comments:

  1. Sending love b!! Also big big big mood about spending lots of money on shopping - was literally thinking about talking about it too because I've been really impulsive this summer and been so conflicted/confused about money and saving/spending. My friend gave me a really good tip for saving and just being a little smarter tho! I've also made a pledge to no longer engage in impulsive fast fashion - especially online!! (I bought a dress on Boohoo and returned it the next day literally saying to myself that I wouldn't have even batted an EYE at that dress if I saw it in real life...what is wrong w/ me? haha) but yeah! Your trip looked amazing btw! Zoe xo

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    1. Thanks my love! I've been completely the same!! I know I should be sensible and save, but then I find myself scrolling on asos saving everything... Boohoo is the worst I swear, it's so cheep and the countdown for free delivery at the top always stresses me out and I make weird impulse buys.. Thank you, hope you're well!! xox

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  2. Well done on your result, it's amazing gal! I feel ya so much on simply feeling stuck in life, you don't know whether you're going up nor down and it's all just one big unknown. Take time out for yourself and do whatever makes you happy in that moment, try not to dwell too much because I know I do, just go out and do!

    Lucy Jane | Infinity of Fashion

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    1. Thanks Lucy!! It is so strange going into the unknown, but hopefully it'll all work out! xox

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  3. Lexie!!!! Congrats on the distinction that's amazing. The post travelling blues are the worst but I try to focus on the nice parts like having a routine again. sending you love x

    LEXI LIKES

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    1. Thanks Lexi!! Very true, hope you're having an amazing trip!! xo

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  4. Bitch!!! Well done on your distinction that's amazing!! I'd love to see a post with some of your art. I feel you about the funk, but things will work out and I hope you achieve the things you aim to do. Don't feel guilty about having time, you deserve time you have the rest of your life to work take the time now to indulge in your hobbies!!x
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  5. that sounds great! and congrats on getting distinction. you must be so amazing! continue pursuing your passion, i also want to create more. :) Anyway, just dropping by to say hello all the way from the Philippines! I hope you can drop by my blog too and follow along if you like. Have a nice day! :)

    xoxo, rae
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  6. I get the funk your in!! I guess its because its summer and you're in an inbetween stage atm! just enjoy summer and you've got great things ahead!! proud of ya gal xx

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thank you x