I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery- air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, "this is what it is to be happy." - Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

Hey guys I hope you are well!
As with every summer, I haven't blogged as much as I wanted to. I've been a lot busier that I had anticipated and I have not had a moment to think. I still have compilations of summer posts to show you all, so I will try and post them throughout the early autumn.
I also wanted to try and create somewhat of a series on here.  I write down thoughts I have on the notes page on my phone, and as I no longer do English I'm irrationally worried that I will loose the fluency of writing that took so much work and effort to acquire. So, here I am with a series where I will write about what's on my mind. ALSO I have rekindled my love of Tumblr; pls comment your Tumblrs below so I can follow.

This week I start a new chapter in my life and a new beginning. I've finally left my secondary school and sixth form after seven years of the same people, teachers and gossip. For me the transition from primary to secondary school was exceptionally emotionally demanding. I have always struggled with change but that year was particularly difficult for me; as difficult as an eleven year olds life can be, it's all relative.
After seven years of secondary school, I am scared the same fear will transpire again this year. I've changed a lot since I was eleven respectively, but I still carry a form of that anxiety with me even though I am no longer the same introverted girl. Anxiety has presented itself within my life in a cohort of different ways, it would be rude not to acknowledge it particularly at a time in which I'm certain it'll make an appearance.
Throughout life, we all experience fear and worry but it is how you cope in those moments of trepidation that count.
I was watching a speech the other day the Sandra Bullock gave and she said a very profound but true statement,
"I don't remember any of the times I spend worrying, so that's a lot of time I can't get back."

I am a serial worrier. I worry if there's enough coffee for me in the mornings, if there will be a nuclear war, if my passing arm ache is cancer.  My Google search history is full of me confiding in Dr Google for life advice.
But we are all wasting our time by worrying. Whilst our knowledge and past experiences taint our judgement and fears of the future, it is so important to remember that every moment and every experience is different and as cliche as it is: everything happens for a reason.

So for that reason this time round I'm not bothering. I'm not bothering to think too much, to allow my mind to over power my actions. The forgiving nature of new beginnings is so appealing; I no longer want to carry the burden of fear and irrational worry.

I hope you all are coping in this transitional period. September always brings around change, but perhaps that is why autumn is so desirable.

Go get em gals and guys x x

P.S I watched this earlier and the part when Steph and Claire are talking is veryyy appropriate to this post, so defo give it a watch.

Jorja Smith (pic from on the web)

my favourites (not to do with instagram..)

hey guys!!
I'm really struggling atm- I've hit this weird block.. I've been trying lots of things out like youtube etc but I just feel like I'm not really progressing creatively? It's been a long time since I've made anything I'm proud of. I want to create but I honestly don't know what to do/ what my vibes are? I basically have no idea what I'm doing at the moment, it's all gone a bit weird..

Anyway, the point of this post is to tell you all I have made a new instagram for my blog @lexiealexandrablog (that's the username at the moment, but it'll change.) I'd be very grateful if you could follow it, I need to find all you folks on instagram!! The point of this is just to basically compile everything and get myself sorted eh. I'm just stuck in a rut at the moment, I need someone to tell me what to do lol...

hope you all are well, what do you guys do in this situation??


UPDATE: After a day, I've decided I don't like having two instagrams so I'm gonna stick with one lool. So my Instagram is @lexiealexandra (as per)

Hey y'all! Guess who's getting into her YouTube;) I made a little haul video today and I'd be very grateful if you watched it! I'm going to do a post about my DIY Ralph Lauren two piece soon too

 I made a little video of my 2016 from random videos I found, hope you like it! It's a bit cringe but oh well.